Feelings + Hormones + Pigging Out

Suddenly I felt scared today. An unpleasant feeling niggling away. I can't put my fingers on it. Just a sense of fear, apprehension, anxiety...maybe it's just knowing the date that's drawing closer.

Suddenly I started to doubt myself, of whether I have taken good care of myself in the last 9 months. What if the stress and frustration I experienced sometimes have scared the little being that I have been given responsibility for.

Suddenly I started to worry the reasons behind my smaller appetite this time round. Have I eaten enough? Is my body prepared for it this time round? Have I neglected him/her?

It sounds silly. I shoudn't be feeling scared at all. I have been through it once before.

But is being through it once before that scares me a little bit.

All day I reassured myself. I meditated. I imagined a smiling bub in me. I did deep breathing.

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Not long after this post, my big sista W rang me all the way from KL. We had a laugh becoz I knew my emotional roller coaster is all HORMONAL! Yes, those damn hormones that plays havoc to your mood. And she also put it down as me having a football withdrawal symptom for the last couple of nights.

So tonight with packet of potato crisps, a caramel fudge ice cream that's already sitting in my fridge...I should be fine.

On this note, I am going to make a kick ass Chicken Pie for dinner now!

And here's how the Chicken Pie looked like. BTW, I dug out my good old electric pie maker for the pies to turn out looking so professional.